Name/Username: Maria and idk
History of ED (how it started, how long you've had it, and how you feel about it at this point): idk how it started, had it for 2 years and at this point i dont know how i should feel about it.
What you're hoping to get out of this community: People who understand me.
Anything else you'd like to tell us: I have a dog =]
Ok im putting my foot down. Starting monday. Eating healthy,exersie. I did that before and lost 20 pds. I was so happy. But i have a feeling now that my mom never wants me to be skinny. I think she was jealous and got me back on the whole junk food shit. Then i felt bad and would nothing for days,some how my mind takes over and i binge. Its a huge cycle. I want to be healthy and happy. Im not going to let anyone in my way. I just dont want to keep this up. It will hit me in the long run. I want to be toned but not too much. I want to be healthy. This is bad for me mentally and physically. Im goning to do kick boxing(which helps relive stress) and walk on our treadmill. I just can't breath any more. I want to be able to breath again...Im not going to let my moms poor eatting habits effect my eating habits.
I'd like to hear about everyone's sleep patterns. I think that I've gotten worse with obsessing over food and losing weight and it's affected my sleep schedule. The earliest I go to bed anymore is around five or five-thirty but I also stay awake as late [early?] as eight a.m. and while it's been fine for the summer, I can't really live like this come September. I've tried reading, drinking herbal tea, exhausting my body, things like that. Smoking pot works, but I'm kind of looking for something else.
Anyway, I was wondering how those of you with similar problems cope? Herbal therapy, prescription meds, etc. Please let me know.